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Assalamualaikum and hello, o awesome readers!

I guess I'm pretty cool person. I likes be positive, helping others, writing and exploring.  Also a fan of happy ending. Even life is too serious as it is. This blog i called as my second heart. Everything with Allah blessing, i'll share those awesome moments in my life. Overall i think is a lot about my family. 'Cause i love them....LOL.

Thanks for all your support! It means a lot. Anyway, welcome to my life.

Monday, November 28, 2016

Tidur

Hasil carian imej untuk we heart it sleep

Assalamualaikum.

I admit that I'm die-hard-fan of bab tidur menidur.
Anyone knew that.
Cannot tipu.
My top hobbies.
Favourite subject ever.

Well, if korang nak tahu, i can fall asleep anywhere in anytime.
Tengah makan pon pernah. 
Ni time zaman-zaman PLKN.
Tengah berdiri buat case lagilah pernah.
Sorry.

Janji mata boleh tutup, i rasa relax then dreamland here i come.

One things yang menyokong kepada penarik untuk tidur adalah if I'm super tired.
I need a couple of minute pon jadilah.
Selalu after post call, balik rumah. Memang tidur first yang i will do.
Tak tahu kenapa jadi la tu.

Included if i rasa boring... that's bonus duh.
Usually if jem lah.
Part paling best... sebab tu i forever like stay at the back as passenger.
Not even co-pilot.
I can slept until my head sakit sebab lama sangat tidur.
Hehehee...

And i sanggup tinggalkan any interesting foods untuk tidur sahaja.
Kriuk-kriuk perut sambil tidur?
Like I care...
Tidur lagi penting, guys.

So, if you seen me taking a nap.
Please don't kacau.
And don't candid pictures my face. I know I'm cute enough.
And stay silent, limit noisy.
Thank you.

P/s: My metabolism surgeon ada cakap, tidur can make you slim! So, tunggu apa lagi.

Hasil carian imej untuk we heart it sleep

Sunday, November 27, 2016

Makanan sehinggit

Assalamualaikum.

Just baru-baru ni aku berkesempatan beli makanan kat stall mak cik bawah rumah aku nih.
Selalu time aku nak beli, time tu la baru dia bukak.
Time aku tak nak beli, sebab aku dah ada breakfast.
Time tu gak la dia bukak awai sikit.
So, la ni baru aku singgah sebab lapar.

Aku pon cam biasa, beli kuih.
Campur-campur.
And aku choose mee, sebab nasi lemak dia ramai sangat beratur.
Malas la.

And time nak bayar.
Sehinggit jer mee aku tu rupanya.
Tak ada telur sebab aku suka homemade punya.
Gediks tak.
Hehheh...
Tapi,
Gila murah lak ai dia jual.
Nasi lemak, and bihun yang lain-lain pon just sehenggit jer.
Patutlah berdoyan-doyan orang datang.

Hasil carian imej untuk we heart it nasi lemak

Moga murah rezeki ko mak cik anak beranak.
Cayokk!
Ada time aku beli lagi.

Saturday, November 26, 2016

Peah: Art class

Assalamualaikum.

Since my sister stop kerja.
And preggy.
Dia jadik suri rumah sepenuh masa.
So Peah tak pergi any nursery.

Dia ajar Peah kat rumah.
So far i think that's a good idea.
Can i put my kids at your home sis in future?
Because nursery sekarang tak boleh di percayai.
Scary much.

But your house at Tapah!
I will miss them.
Ok, aku la plak yang jadik suri rumah kalau gitu.
My partner must agree with this.
Bruhhh...
Gila punya statement.

And memandangkan Peah pon dalam proses learning.
Dia akan everyday tengok cerita budak-budak
Akak aku more bagi dia pada art class.
Bagi dia enjoy.
O, how i miss when my homework just coloring!
Huhuhuuu...

And how i seen, that kakak aku boleh kawal pola makanan dia.
No fast food.
No jajan.
Not even a chocolate!

Then, my sister ajar jugak dia supaya independent.
Sidai baju sendiri in her own mini hanger.
And ate by herself.
Be clean and tidy.
And that's brilliant idea.
I support you sis.


Thursday, November 24, 2016

Resepi puding jagung kastard.

Assalamualaikum.

Masuk nih, dah dua kali aku buat this dessert.
And tiap kali tu la licin.
Kan aku dah cakap dulu, mereka ni memang spesis piranhas kat Amazon sana.
Korang campak la apa kat atas meja tu, gerenti habes.
Hahhahaaa...

Tak dinafikan, bila penat buat case. Memang akan lapar gila.
Sebab tu aku suka standby bar chocolate just in case.

Tengok diorang happy makan.
Tak dinafikan... aku pon happy sama.
Even aku sempat kuis kuis sikit jer. Sebab aku, memang tak suka makan makanan yang aku masak.
Tak ada feeling gitu.
Sebab tu nanti aku nak carik partner yang pandai masak. Baru best.

Before korang masak, meh aku bagi tips ala ala pantang larang untuk masak dessert nih.
Paling penting... jangan terlebih air.
Guna sukatan air paling minimum. If terlebih, korang buat jelah bubur jagung. Ops.
Kena kacau selalu. Api kena maintains.
Bila lalai jap, ketoi ketoi la nanti. Dah tak smooth.
And lastly, after siap.
Better la kan... Letak kat dalam bekas yang kecik kecik. Yang cute-cute tuh.
Sebab senang nanti hidangannya. And mostly, lagi menarik time serving nanti. Barulah mak mertua puji korang melambung lambung.

Anyway, nilah resepinya:

1 cawan tepung castard
1 tin susu sejat yang cair tuh
Gula ikut suka nak manis tahap mana. 1/2 cawan pon boleh.
Butter satu sudu besar. Ni bagi korang punya jagung berlemak gitu.
Air...1 1/2 cawan.
1 tin jagung
If ada jagung tongkol lebih-lebih boleh join sekali.
Garam ikut suka. Aku dah letak butter, so aku tak letak garam.
Nak letak pewarna pon boleh setitik dua.

Caranya plak adalah... mula-mula korang dilute tepung castard dulu dengan air.
Pastu, sediakan periuk belanga untuk aktiviti memasak. Api kecik hokey.
Masukkan gula. Susu sejat and tepung custard yang dah dilute tu.
Gaul-gaulkan ia.
Pastu after 5, 10 minute. Letak isi tin jagung. And isi jagung yang lebih-lebih.
Then, gaul lagi sampai betul-betul melekitnya. And cantik warnanya. Bila puas hati. Bolehlah letak pewarna and butter.
Gaul lagi.
And siap.
Masukkan dalam bekas.

Biar sejuk jap, and letak la dalam peti ais if korang suka sejuk-sejuk.

Aku masuk dalam loyang sebab aku tak ada bekas kecik-kecik tuh.
So, redha jela ohkey.
Selamat mencuba!
Agak-agak sedap, buatlah lagi.
Kasik jiran sebelah, depan, belakang, ke kan.
Hehhehe...
= )

Wednesday, November 23, 2016

Adik beradik problem

Assalamualaikum.

Kami adik beradik sangat rapat, mostly among yang perempuan.
Plus our mak ayah ajar kami jadi strong.
And independent enough.
Mungkin sebab tu kami perempuan boleh beat adik beradik lelaki dalam family.
Just because they are useless.
Sorry bro!
Some more, because we are the majority.
So give us your respect.

And we have our own group Whats app.
That's make our bond makin awesome.

Then, baru-baru ni... aku telah menjadi main topic in our group.
They talk about my dhunya thing.
Which i don't really care actually.
But they think i have to masuk campur because i'm the owner... so terpaksalah.
And they are waiting my next step.
What i'm gonna do about that.

I actually da tried to deal with the one who used it.
Because dulu dia pernah da pinjam.
And same problem.
Buat macam harta sendirik.
Untuk that item i dapat semula not in good condition. My ayah pon tak puas hati.
Dia care bagi terbaik balik.

So kali ini dia pinjam balik. I said ok. Because like i said. I tak kisah pon.
Dhunya semua ini.
So after my sibling discuss that i have to take an action... So, i did.
Mula-mula i give him a message.
I said carefully, can you pulang balik.
And no reply.
Like i'm the one yang mengemis sendiri pulak.
And i tried to be cool.
I let him use, and until a month passes dah... and i think he dah buat harta sendirik again.
Hailo.

Ni kalau next time nak pinjam, aku nak bagi ke tak agak-agak?

So, last Tuesday i given message to his wife.
Why dia tak nak pulang. Can you check and update with me later.
Then message i give to his wife i paste in the group Whats app.
And her replied also.
See? I tried my best.
I don't like marah-marah orang.
Can you not push my button.

After few minute, the one yang pinjam message me.
He said sorry. But every replied not said he will pulang balik.
I think my message semua direct version.
And i screen shoot our conversation.
And cc again to that group.
What you all want me to do?
I have no idea.

That thing, i put at my parents house because i care for them.
I want they to use what i give them.
Time ni la masa i scarified what i have.
Not i paid for you to used.
Not in my niat. Ever.
Dah la aku ni dok jauh. Nak tolong hulur masa... i have limited edition.
So i give them what i think they should have.
In case any emergency. They can be independent. Like they thought me dulu.


So, to that person.
I not even marah sekelumit pon if you want to use mine.
But when my ayah call. He said you after get it. Not even once balik tengok apa patut di tolong.
Aku sangat rasa kecewa.
Why la you behavior like this.
That's why i want to take it back.
Because of your perangai.

Cubalah balik pada Allah.
Fikir tanggungjawab diri sendiri.
And you will know what you should do.
Why people treat you like that.
Semua orang pernah buat kesilapan. Aku pon.
Tapi tak salah if kita pandai fikir yang kita patut ubah diri sendiri sebelum terlambat.
Understood.

Bye!

Tuesday, November 22, 2016

Masak lagi ke?

Assalamualaikum,

Aku rasa la kan,
Aku boleh amik part time job as tukang masak kat pantry department aku tu la.
Versi ala ala mak cik kantin masa zaman kita kat sekolah dulu.
Menarik gila tak.
Hohohooo...

Tapi menu sajian aku semua tahap campak-campak la.

So far, bila ada nasi lebih a day after event makan besar.
Muka nilah yang akan kena masak.
Aku tak kisah pon sebab aku pantang if tengok makanan dibazirkan begitu jer. Bagi aku if korang tak nak makan maybe akan ada orang lain sudi makan.
And,
Mak aku tak ajar semua tu.
Membazirkan amalan syaitan... maka ada baiknya aku buat nasi goreng.
Kannn...

Aku gaul gak sekali dengan apa dalam harta karun aku jumpa dalam fridge tu.
Tang sayur da kuning-kuning. Aku potong ikut suka. Aku masukkan gak.
Sambal belacan stock setahun pon aku guna.
And part paling syiok, aku rembat sosej dalam fridge.
Ni aku kenal owner dia la. And aku bayar balik ohkey.
Tak nak la ada part drama tak puas hati and segala menggungkit-ungkit plak in future.

Selain nasi goreng as main dish. Aku pernah gak goreng bihun.
Satu tray besar aku goreng.
Tak mahu kalah dengan orang ala ala kenduri or catering.
Tapi habis!
Memang sah spesis piranhas diorang semua.

Aku gak pernah kutip roti kosong yang berlambak kat pantry, expired ke tak. Aku sapu.
Aku buat bake bread pudding.
Raisin , susu, butter semua bahan asas aku usha-usha fridge tu la.
And esok pagi aku hidang as menu breakfast bagi diorang makan. 
FYI, aku dapat dua loyang ohkey.
So far, semua sihat lagi.
Heheheee...

Hasil carian imej untuk bread butter pudding

Anyways kekadang bosan gak masak nih.
Cer la korang bagi orang lain plak masak.
Nak gak aku try diorang punya masakan.
Kannnn...
Sebab aku if aku yang masak, cam biasa, aku tak tak suka makan apa aku masak.
Dah la aku masak, aku kena rasa makanan sendiri.
No feeling bro.

Memandangkan sebelum balik kerja semalam, aku perhati yang nasi himpit dalam fridge tak berubah.
Aku ingat aku nak buat lontong.
Tapi bila fikir santan, bla. Bla. Blaaa...
Aku buat sup ayam jela.

Insyaallah if siap before lunch, boleh makan sesama.
Tapi if tak sempat.
Makan dengan sesama budak oncall jela.
= )

Monday, November 21, 2016

Islamic practice: Sunnah of pregnancy

Assalamualaikum.

I knew mesti korang think i'm having a concussion to post something like this.
No, i'm not preggo or what. Ohkey. Please.
I just found this and it's so interesting.
And want to post it here.
As referrer later.
Ehem.

May one fine day, i get married and being pregnant and i can through this special feeling.
That a weird little peanut in your tummy.
So, i can bullied my partner to search this and read it for me.
I will make sure he carik sampai jumpa.
Anyway,
Who knows? I plan, Allah the mastermind.
Aamin.


Copy paste from my favorite Facebook page ever.
Islamic Practice page.
Silalah like if sudi.

SUNNAH OF PREGNANCY:

⭐Having children is one of the blessings of Allah. God provides us all with different rizq (well-being), health and offsprings. All of these things are gifts from God and we should be grateful for what we are given and never complain for what we don't have.
⭐It is sunnah to announce the birth of the child once the baby arrives but till that moment below are some beneficial practices for you and your child in sha Allah.

⭐KEEP IT PRIVATE
If you are expecting a baby, keep thanking God for this gift and keep it private among close relatives. There is a general principle which should be paid attention to when telling others of blessings. The news should be given only to those who wish good for you and will rejoice over it, so as to ward off the evil eye and destructive envy (hasad). The evidence for that is the words of the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him): “Be discreet in order to achieve what you want, for everyone who is blessed is envied.” Narrated by al-Tabaraani and Abu Nu’aym; classed as sahaah by al-Albaani in Saheeh al-Jaami’, no. 943.

⭐BE THANKFUL
Be thankful to Allah for having chosen you for such a gift. The first trimester is hard for some women who suffer from nausea (morning sickness) and weakness; and the last weeks of pregnancy are exhausting:
Allah says in the Quran: “…His mother carried him, [increasing her] in weakness upon weakness…” (Surah Luqman:14)
“…His mother carried him with hardship and gave birth to him with hardship…” (Surah al-Aĥqaf:15)
- even then, keep thanking Allah and believe that He will never burden you more than you can bear! He is indeed the best of planners and knows what is best for us!

⭐FOLLOW THE FOOTSTEPS OF THE MOTHER OF Maryam (AS)
What a blessed mother was she who gave birth to Maryam! So why not follow her footsteps and make the same dua (supplication) she did when she was expecting as narrated in the Quran: “[Mention, O Muhammad], when the wife of ‘Imran said: My Lord, indeed I have pledged to You what is in my womb, consecrated [for Your service], so accept this from me. Indeed, You are the Hearing, the Knowing.” (Surah Aal Imran: 35)
With this dua, renew your intention every day that this baby would be a pious servant of Allah. Insha’Allah your intentions and prayers will have a positive effect in creating an innate bond between your child and the deen (religion) of Allah!

⭐WHEN RUH (SOUL) ENTERS YOUR BABY
It is narrated in a hadith by the Prophet (sa) that: “Each one of you is constituted in the womb of the mother for forty days, and then he becomes a clot of thick blood for a similar period, and then a piece of flesh for a similar period. Then Allah sends an angel who is ordered to write four things. He is ordered to write down his deeds, his livelihood, his (date of) death, and whether he will be blessed or wretched (in religion). Then the soul is breathed into him…” (Bukhari)
Based on this hadith, jurists have inferred that the soul enters the foetus at around 4 months/120 days after gestation, that is, the second trimester. As you enter your second trimester, make frequent dua to Allah to pre-ordain for your baby a life of unwavering faith.

⭐RECITE THE QURAN FOR YOUR BABY
Around the 20th week, the baby in the womb gains the ability to hear. This is a great time to create a one-on-one, exclusive bond with your unborn baby by reciting the Quran every day. The sound waves of your voice will reach your baby and what better words than the melodious Quran for your baby to hear and get familiar with. Give your child a head start in creating a relationship and bond with the Quran even before he comes in this world. This is one of the greatest gifts you can give to your child!

⭐READ UP
Perhaps one of the things that the woman should focus on during this period is learning about sound methods of raising children, reading books on this topic or listening to useful lectures by scholars on it, whether that has to do with moral upbringing, health, psychology, pedagogy, and so on, in preparation for the great mission with which Allah has entrusted the parents, which is the trust of raising and caring for the child, so that the parents may embark upon it with knowledge and insight and achieve the best results, and attain the pleasure of Allah in this world and in the Hereafter.

⭐DUAS
As for the acts of worship that the pregnant woman can do, they are all the acts of worship that the Muslim does by day and by night, such as praying, fasting (so long as there is no fear of harm), giving charity, reading Qur’aan, regularly reciting the adhkaar that are prescribed in sharee‘ah, treating people kindly, visiting relatives, taking stock of oneself, and striving to attain the best attitudes, actions and words

⭐FOOD AND FITNESS
Meditation through prayer: Many people will guide you towards yoga and meditation, which are a great way to relax your overworked body. However remember that prayer is the best form of meditation and it will calm you and soothe your baby as well.
⭐Keep checking in with Allah: Stay connected with Allah and talk to Him about your fears and difficulties. Make istikharah (guidance prayer) for all decisions, especially when choosing your doctor and your delivery options. Ask Allah to grant you a safe delivery, a righteous child, and an easy transition into motherhood.
⭐Avail the maternity leave Allah has given, if needed: The Prophet (sa) said: “Allah has relieved the traveller of half of the prayer and of the duty to fast, and He has relieved pregnant and nursing mothers (of the duty to fast).” (Sunan an-Nasa’i; reliable) If you feel that you are unable to fast due to weakness or any other complication, you can leave your fast without any worry. However do remember to mark it somewhere so that you don’t forget to make it up later.
⭐Eat beneficial foods: Add honey, milk, figs, and dates to your diet as all of these have been mentioned in the Quran or the hadith for their benefits.
⭐May Allah make your pregnancy easy, and grant you a pious child who will be sadaqah-e-jariah (continuous charity) for you. Ameen.

Saturday, November 19, 2016

Ice cream treat

Assalamualaikum,

Today after kerja, me and my colleague had an ice cream hang out at McDonald's Ampang Park Mall.
My treat.
Because tetiba on the way nak balik rasa nak makan, so dia pon cam.
Akak okey jer dik...
So bila gitu, kami ordered and took a seat there.
And bit chit chat chot.

Hasil carian imej untuk we heart it ice cream mcdonald
Nasib time aku pergi tak jadik gini. Machine function in good condition.
Nak pesan sdozen still available.

When i ambil the first sip, i still remember bila dulu me and my ex colleagues kat hospital lain pernah hang out at McDonald's waktu 3, 4 pagi.
Ni kalau my emak tau... habislah!
Anyway, time tu kami baru lepas attend big dinner event sebenarnya.
Hahahahaa...
Wonder gak, are that seafood yang kami lahap masih tak cukup ker.
Bruhhhh.
Ni zaman no diet deal.
So quiet ohkey.
Masih slim sampai sekarang.

Berbalik pada akak yang i hang out, lots of disebalik tabir punya stories kami cerita.
Nak kata categories mengumpat.
Boleh sikit-sikit.
Astagfirullah al azim...
Nanti isnin i want to apologize the people we talked about.
Sorry buddies.
Setan influences too strong to resist.
Hehehee....

And masa jalan kaki balik, sempat singgah one market.
And time nak que bayar items... some kids belakang line pujuk his friends soh belanja.
Belanja ice cream.
Ice cream again?
Mula-mula tried la ignore diorang punya perbualan.
But, bila kawan dia hati keras or maybe tak ada duit lebih nak belanja kawan dia lagi sorang.
And his friend pon merajuk... bawak diri.
Ok, sedih la plak kan.

Takkan my ice cream day berakhir dengan sad ending kan.

So, i offer myself.
Ok kids, ran and get your friends. Just grab you all fav ice cream.
My treat.
Dia and the gang pon berlumba lumba kesukaan.
Happy gila mereka.

Hailo, miss my ' lil niece and nephew!
At the end of the day, only tinggal me and my choc bar.
Also my fav duh.
Too chocolatey untuk menolak.
= )

Friday, November 18, 2016

Bye bye Koko

Last call with my locker neighbor or the second shortest person in our department, 
Miss Ko Hwee See.
She sudah resigned.
She said she wants to work kat Singapore.
Wish her the best in future. 


Koko,
This page is for you.
I hope you,
Stay adorable please even your face so bulat.
And your mata kecik.

Dekat sana, i hope gak you will jumpa your another mata sepet or same height and get married soon.
Peace.
I know you hate this statement.
But i still love you.


Thanks for everything. 
Quotes for you... friends are like boobs. Some are big. Some are small. Some are real. Some are fake.
But you are the original.
Gonna miss you.
Big hugs!


Thursday, November 17, 2016

Careful with your words


Assalamualaikum.

In hundred or tak sampai billions of friends aku ada.
Fact or not facts...
At least satu mesti sangkut.
Yang aku terpaksa deal dengan dia punya manners.
So annoying.
Like dia jer semua yang betul.
Huh.

Mula-mula i tried to think positive.
Sebab so far dia punya manners still in my range.
Belum tunjuk taring lagi kot.

But lately... we are memang tak boleh kamceng lagi dah.
Cannot.
I said, i cannot tahan.
How can boleh aku tahan lagi?
Bila aku tengok dia, rasa nak tumbuk or kick orang dah ni

When dia senang-senang nak tried bullies me.
Aku bagi muka emotionless.
Annoy aku dengan sengaja.
Ini kadang-kadang aku marah la jugak.
Tapi pastu aku senyum balik.
Sebab bagi aku hidup kena maintain cool.
And then when dia start hurting you physically.
That the full stop. To me!

Hello.
Like freaking damn aku nak biarkan jer.
Sakit gila.
Stupid.
My left arm red for two days and bruise for another seven days.
But i'm not telling dia.
Likes dia akan care aku balik?
A big no.

Now, aku malas nak layan dia.
I will remember how hurt my left arm are.
Bukan nak memutuskan silaturrahim la kan.
But if you continue dengan this kind of perangai...
Not gonna say banyak.
Get out from my eyes.
You are not invited.
Pergi main jauh-jauh.

You want to know why aku selalu hang out with my kawan lelaki.
Aku gurau kasar dengan diorang.
But diorang tak pernah balas balik?
Sebab diorang tahu,
Aku cepat bruise.
And that bruise bukan bruise biasa.
Ia sakit.
Mereka faham aku.
But not you.

Satu lagi, the most yang aku selalu caught you.
Your ego problem.
Your riak perfectly statement.
I think, you and i dah argue tentang benda ni dulu.
And i said, jangan riak... nampak useless.

Then, you beri your alasan.
Reason yang tak masuk akal actually.
You said you want to be a good person, but donno your words hurting all.
Tak akan everyday nak collect dosa atas mulut sendiri.
Tak penat ke?
Malaikat yang bahu sebelah kiri sentiasa mencatit laju with your every second statement.

I think i have beri dia pengajaran sikit.
Even i know dia kan balas balik.
But what would i care?
Dia can hurt me more, but he cannot mess with my emotion.
Because dia memang spesis bipolar.
Dia patut duduk kat kutub Utara sana.

Pray for me
#prayforme

Tuesday, November 15, 2016

Stupid shirt we talking about

Assalamualaikum.

Last Saturday, i said to my friend in serious tone.
I want the Shirt that he will get from his Sunday morning event. Occasion run with Bio essence I think.
I donno why i cared so much, before this any run marathon he joined. I tak ambil kisah pon. Lantaklah.
But this one... menarik like crazy my sense, that i want that shirt really bad.
Not sure by the way, if that shirt are good looking or not.
Like i said, my senses.

I said to him. I will waited at the finishing line.
To grab his shirt, and bawak lari.
Gila tak gila. Even tak buat pon sebenarnya sebab i'm oncall hokey.
Job calling.
Lots of case are waiting on that day!
Hailo.

After i cannot pujuk him.
I tried to this one guy. Dia pon join gak. Even we selalu fight like there is no tomorrow but for that shirt i sanggup.
So, i WhatsApp him.
I said i want that shirt... he replied every message in blur figured.
Bruhhh...

And the next day.
When i seen my friends posted about the marathon. And i seen how cool the color of that shirt.
I terus, ohkey.
I will get that shirt no matter how.
If i cannot get it in sesi pujuk memujuk... how about, can i paid you and you give me that shirt.
Win win situation, bro.
Don't you like my money?



Surprisingly... that evening, this guy message me if i still interested in that sweat shirt?
Of course i am.
But gi la basuh dulu baru bagi, kan.
I stated my reason that i want that shirt tok bawak gi menoreh.
And well, we fight in next replied.
Lol.

Yesterday, when i mintak that shirt... he buat-buat blur. Rasa nak hentak kepala kat dinding.
Why la i had to dealing with this guy.
And when the friends yang sama-sama gi marathon found out, i want that shirt.
They kutuk i like freaking awesome punya ayat.
Gurghhhh.... I give them pandangan membunuh.
And when I tried to catch them. They ran bertaburan like anak ayam.
Penakut!

Ikutkan i'm not really so addicted to have it anyway.
.. that stupid shirt.
But, just want it to cover my next coming event. Because my closet yang penuh dengan blouse and jubah tak sesuai for it.
Shirt yang ada some i dah used for other things. Huhuhuuu...

If korang sayang sangat, nanti i will pulangkanlah balik hokey.

By the way, i think... looks like not my rezeki.
Biarlah. No offended pon kat diorang.
That's their right.
Me? Nak wat camner. Kena la haunting every sport outlets this weekend.
After my volunteered class.
Sebab event nya next week. Hope sempat.
And maybe I should grab two or three shirt later.
Senang sikit.

Cayoook!

Monday, November 14, 2016

New royal blue scarf

Assalamualaikum,

Last week someone came to my department and jual tudung.
So, one friend show me that kind of tudung. And i'm really fall in love with the color.
But the one she tunjuk, she already bought it.
Poor me.

And one guy as usual be a model for me.
He style that tudung.
The one yang tinggal bit bright colour. Not so fine. I just, maybe next time...
And suddenly he ask me if i want it or not.
I like, maybe next session duh.
And he said, if you want just take it. Dia akan bayar.
I like... are you serious... sayang?
Like damn serious?!!!

And he angguk-angguk.
I thought he just joking around. Even sebenarnya, i wish it's true.
So, i tried it on me and put it back in place and leave it there.
And when i came back the seller told me.
Ini untuk awak, that guy akan bayar.
And when I asked that guy is he serious about this.
And dia cakap, ya.
I said... thank you sayang.

And that make me smile.

Then, on the way untuk simpan dalam my locker, i sempat showed back to my friend, i get it jugak ohkey.
And we giving each other evil smile.
But one guy makes my smile turn to fade when he said my tudung like alas meja.
I hate him.
Really, really hate him so much.

Why la he really like push my button.
Bursting dengan sengaja my angry mood.
Tanpa tunggu lama, i tried balas balik. My action louder than words dude..
And i will not gonna said i dapat that for free to him.
Lagilah dia akan kutuk non stop.
So when I caught him. And nak balas dendam. Others akan suka back up him... not me.
Huhuhuuu... i felt di lupakan.
His fault guys. Why can't you all see that!
Huh.

Anyway, malas nak citer pasal dia.
Better I appreciate what other guy giving me. Right.
I pray Allah will bless him everyday.
And thank you for the tudung.
You're so baik.
I will take care of it.
= )


Sunday, November 13, 2016

Islamic practice: Children to islam

Assalamualaikum.

Yesterday, i posted about Peah and something related about children to Islamic thing.
Then today, I found this good advises from Facebook.
That i really excited to share it with you all.
Really good duh.
Very awesome advises to anyone who don't know to start a first steps about this.
Right.

And, you all can like this page too.
This page is super nice and lots of knowledgable Islamic post.
Can motivated your soul every second.
Every day.
Like me.
It's called... Islamic practice, page.
And please look through this page as you wanted.

How to inspire manners to your children:
1. When entering the house greet your children with salams and kisses. This should help develop their sense of love and mercy.
2. Be good to your neighbours and never backbite. Never speak ill of other drivers when on the road. Your children listen, absorb and emulate.
3. When calling your parents, encourage your children to speak to them. When visiting your parents take your children with you. The more they see you take care of your parents the more they will learn to take care of you.
4. When driving them say to school, don't always play albums or cds (even if my cds!). Rather, tell them the stories yourself. This will have a greater impact - trust me!
5. Read to them a short hadith a day – it doesn't take much time, but very impactful in creating strong bonds and wonderful memories.
6. Comb your hair, clean your teeth and wear presentable cloths even if sitting at home and not going out for the day. They need to learn that being clean and tidy has nothing to do with going out!
7. Try not to blame or comment on every word or action they say or do. Learn to overlook and let go sometimes. This certainly builds their self-confidence.
8. Ask your children's permission before entering their rooms. Don't just knock and enter, but then wait for a verbal permission. They will learn to do the same when wanting to enter your room.
9. Apologize to your children if you made a mistake. Apologizing teaches them to be humble and polite.
10. Don't be sarcastic or make fun of their views or feelings, even if you "didn't mean it" and was "only joking". It really hurts.
11. Show respect to your children's privacy. Its important for their sense of value and self-esteem.
12. Don't expect that they will listen or understand the first time. Don't take it personally. Muhammad ‏ﷺ never did. But be patient and consistent.

If you like it, please share it!
#muslimparenting

Saturday, November 12, 2016

Kedudukan dan panggilan

When mine is at tangga ke-6. I don't think so you all should called me Itam.
Because i more whiter than Snow White duh.
So, saper yang pepandai buat nih? Nak kena nih.
As we argue about this. I have my own kedudukan and panggilan.
1. Balong
2. Kangah
3. Ya Uda
4. Landak
5. Lalang
6. Sweat and cute
7. Panjang
8. Busuk
How? Ready to applied this to my family... Syuhhh...
I think this is why we called each other by name not panggilan stupid like this.
Bye!

Thursday, November 10, 2016

In dilemma

Assalamualaikum.

Bit feeling like brain tak center when i'm typing this post.
Someone may shoot me somewhere somehow.
Wrong target la woi.
Or it's just me the one who actually yang in a wrong target.
Astagfirullah al-azim.
Serabut duh!

I need to luahkan all of this. What my otak think before it's exploded.
Even in every doa selepas solat i cried when i talked to Allah about this clingy things.
I felt useless.
I felt ashamed.
I shouldn't have through this.
It's so haramm and lari from my Islamic life goals even it's felt so right.
Oh no.

As i knew this is my personal blog.
So i think i can trust this page and you, who hardly stalk my blog.
Kept this secret between us.


Let's get terus terang, it's about a men.
Who make my world up and down, thick and thin and spinning sampai pening.
Not so handsome duh.
Either not even my taste actually.
Jauh sekali nak kata ada 'hot killer body'.
Or even a billionaire line.
Pelik kan.
He just only a plain guy with annoying attitude, package perfectly.
Annoy me sampai boleh bawak gaduh la.

So, the problems are... i don't like this feeling.
The unpronounce feeling that i start to feel for him.
Oh please, I'm not admire him either.
As for your information.
Just I hate it when i caught he stares at me.
The way he looks at me.
And i'm the one who the first look away. Always.
Because i can't do it.
To reveal the truth behind those eyes.
... I don't like everything about him. Full-stop.

I tried to play cool.
Kept telling myself that he just my friends.
Kawan susah senang.
My male friends. And maybe trying to be close one. In still remain, friends zone.
Yeah, better like this.
Bulan ke bulan... makin lama we're makin lain.
And it's more than normal.
It's scare me to the bottom. Ini bukan sepatutnya yang di rancang!

One day, after year passes.
I thought why not just give him a chance.
Anyone deserve it. Sampai bila tak nak mingle around, kan.
Treat me like may be we were meant for each other... or we weren't.
And this is just how it had to be.
Pening ar!
Or it's all just my imagination.
And he even don't have a feeling to me?
But all my friends said he likes me.
So, why not I let the time tell.

Sometimes it's feel awkward, and go on awkward.
In every case, I successfully pandai avoid to go out alone with him... because i'm not fully trust him.
Even we're friends.
Good decision.
But, lately... he became my good driver.
My tempat untuk luahkan everything. He always be there for me.
And he love it when i shared those with him.
Or even sometimes we also argue when have to deal with his annoying manners like everyday.
And most drama yang i'm not really like is pretending-to-be-games.
That i think we're memang tak betul in this part.


Seriously, if you questioning me what the real happening is...
Aku sendirik memang tak faham.
Really tak faham.
I donno if he is bipolar type or dulu masa lahir adalah premature baby or what because,
One time he act like he is the guddey gentleman i knew.
He cares about me. Treat me better.
That make me so special. Like Queen gituh.
He gave me something even i'm not asked for it.
Because i'm not give him anything. Bersalah sebenarnya bila fikir balik.
Anyhow i tetapkan pendirian yang dia bukan my real husband that in my responsibilities to care.
Right.

Even he always tried to act like one.
How he one day want me to choose in between clothes he want to buy.
Done pairing same clothes also. Huh.
Share something personal or when needing support about our family things too.
Most i liked, cover my hungriness habit with his food suppliers.
And tolong habiskan my balance makanan.
Paling top, Soh tolong kejut sahur.
Am i sub as his maid or what?
Uit, gih kahwin la bro!

And one time, he turned 360 degree. Act like i'm not existed.
In this universe.
Memang pelik gila.
Or he copied my act?

I'm not giving him a cold shoulder actually.
Sorry duh if he felt so.
I just tried to act normal. Act friendly. Act how the real me to you.
Like we supposed to be.
Same way i treat my male friends and sikit special for you, maybe.
But when i tried, i just can't.
As banyak mata memandang. I felt they are insecure me.
I hate attention, and ini semua so not me.
It's so new for me.

Me and nonsense lovely dovey story line fantasy. So mushy.
So yurks!
Hahhahhaa...
Period.


By the way...i still remembered the first time we met.
In a noisy crowded elevator.
And me in so traditional yellow big size baju kurung.
Perasan cantik la tuh.
So selekeh for real actually.
Then you caught my attention in your also selekeh shirt after work.
For a second i said Astagfirullah.
Ada jugak orang lagi selekeh daripada me. Joking.
And the door open, i go out. One floor separated us.

What if i told you that i missed our night conversation, would it's mean anything for you?
Bruhhhh...
Again,
Why should i have this feeling anyway.
This is not so me, ya Allah.
Like seriously... me?

My friends said, if I fall for him?
I said i don't know.
Because i don't know what fall really feel like.
I'm emotionless girl. My emotion only goes to family things.
You want me to feel what?
I'm new to something romantika de amour fantasy, so please.
Tell me what fall feel like oh my friends.

Really I can't analyse my own feeling.
I hate like crazy when something related about him pop up in my mind.
Make me feel stupid. Started make me to think that he is my future.
He i will called the right one?
The real question is... is he is the right one?
Or my Creator have a another plans.
Istiharakh... like Allah said. But i'm afraid to do it.
How if he is.
What should i do...
And how if he is not.

Honestly, marriage is a huge deal trader.
And i'm the one risking myself...
Because i'm the one who will surviving to bring the good in me, in him, in between family.
Communities. And our future.
What should i do now?
Warghhh, i don't want to talk about this anymore.
I need my emak.
I need her big hug.

Allah, help me too,
Oh please...

Wednesday, November 09, 2016

Peah: Father and daughter time

Assalamualaikum.

My sister sent me a new updated about Peah in our family Whats app.
And i like it very much.
Alhamdulillah.
Just make my day.
She looks so awesome!
And act like a guddey daughter ever.

She start to talk some words and actively want to explore new things.
And most i geram adalah bila tahu that she have her own make up bag.
The most make me more surprised is when i heard that dia bersiap lagi lama daripada mine.
Bruhh...
Really kak, did you teach that also?
Oh mai.


Anyway, this what i called family goals.
#familygoals
Teach and attract your kids towards Islam since they are growing up.
Easier for her and for you.
Bak kata orang,
Biarlah melentur buluh daripada rebungnya,,,kan.

I really want give you big hug Peah.
Good job!
= )

Tuesday, November 08, 2016

Lipas

Assalamualaikum,

Something paling aku tak suka sekali adalah pabila i seen an alive lipas.
Aku repeat, an alive lipas.
And it's moving.
And flying!!!!
Like 'f' i want to speed miles away from it.
Hate it very much!

Meh aku bagitau one bad stories....
One day, i met my friends at corridor.
And he with some cleaner guy tengah cam carik something di balik pintu.
So aku sajer kacau.
Mungkin diorang jumpa pintu keluar yang best untuk escape daripada department ke kan...
And he tetiba senyum kat aku and pegang lipas alive by his hand.
And fast and furious i ran away masa dia tried throw that thing to me.
Urgh.
As my senses are strong enough, aku sempat hide in one room area situ.
Hasil carian imej untuk hate cocroaches

After that, before he grab balik that lipas.
I quickly tangkap balik that lipas.
Caya tak cayalah... but i did.
And kejar dia balik.
We ran along that corridor until he hidden in a room area situ.
Cheit.
Penakut jugak budak tuh.

And that lipas tetiba macam merayap kat my hand.
Stupid lipas.
Aku terus lepaskan benda tu and ran away...
Lantak la dia nak gih maner pon.

And time aku sambung balik buat kerja.
Tetiba my friends yang sama bukak pintu and act like he hold something.
I thought it's that a lipas again.
So i ran like Mr. Bolt in runaway Olympic games.
And maked three full round in that room.
I sempat jerit, if dia throw that thing to me. I will kill him.
I will kill him like seriously.
And aku campak mayat dia bagi jerung makan.

And after we penat lari.
Dia tetiba tengok my pocket.
The hell dia nak lentak benda tu in my pocket.
Gilo.
Tapi rupanya dia checking ingat i kept that thing in my pocket.
Lagilah gilo.
Terus aku bagi kick, kena tipu rupanya... penat tau aku lari...

That's the time, everyone know my secret.
I hate lipas as much i hate marshmallow.
Huahauahuaaa...

Sorry lipas, even you're not haram like pigs or dog.
But you're my nightmare.

Sunday, November 06, 2016

Makes everyone worried

Assalamualaikum.

Yesterday, i makes everyone worried about me.
Aku rasa bersalah bila fikir balik.
Something that yang aku anggap ianya normal but it's became a big issue to others.
It's my fault. Sorry guys.

As i cancelled my oncall to next week.
So I planned to go to my volunteered class as usual.
Then, my friend said diorang ada program lain.
And dia wanna makes appointment with me untuk hang out kat luar.
And discuss sekali penambah baikan programme kelas yang tengah kami usahakan.
Tanpa fikir panjang aku accept je la.
I think i can trust dia.

Pastu, dia cakap hang out kat tempat dia.
Uit... outside maybe better kot.
So we capai kata sepakat.
Best public place...
KL Central. Depan McDonalds at 10 am.
Deal.

Then, as our first met kat luar... tetiba that morning dia cakap nak bawak kawan dia sekali.
Dia ni Germans people, tapi cakap slang indonesia.
Then... aku rasa insecure.
70 % kawan dia maybe same country.
You know what I mean.
And here, I'm alone... And alone.

So aku decided just inform my families.
Then aku whatsapp some details to my sister.
And she memang gila worried.
And aku whatsapp same details to my friends here around KL.
And she also shared same feeling.
And my friends dekat Ipoh pon dah membebel taip panjang-panjang kat whatsapp...
Oh no.

Aku sampai terpaksa screenshot a chat as a proven to my sister that someone here standby for me if anything happens.
Barulah dia ok.

As result, they make me to hold my phone every second.
Update with them every hour.
And stay in one place.
No drink or food, unless before their approval.
And stay alert.
Hailo.

So, i make sure i patuh all the list.
And until i finished everything and on the way home pon my friends still taip ayat panjang-panjang kat whatsapp...
She really worried about me.
Really rasa bersalah.
I swear to her that next time aku akan heret someone with me.
Even though i think I'm big enough.

And I think orang yang aku jumpa not teruk maner.
Not all Germans people are bad duh.
They all not Hitler either.
So, don't judge a book by its cover.
We have good time by the way.

And, to my sister... sorry.
I make you scare.
Sorry again.

And to my friends... sorry for all of you.
Thanks to be by my side.
I still love you all.

Sorry all, thank you all.
= )